Realization

I feel like I’m moving closer and closer to clarity and understanding when it comes to a particular friendship. I say friendship… it is both so much more and so much less than that. Was so much more – and is now so much less, than friendship.
Talking recently on the phone, he said he hadn’t [...]

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Happy Christmas

This Christmas I’m celebrating friendship, old and new. But especially dear old friends. I hope I have the courage to face up to the year ahead and all it brings. I feel it will be eventful, but ultimately rewarding…
Here’s to a peaceful, beautiful and love-filled festive season. Mwah!

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We’ll collect those lonely parts and set them down

Lately I feel that I miss the girl I used to be, now that I know for sure that I’ll never go back to being her again. I don’t even necessarily want to be her, just sometimes feel a little wistfulness for myself a year or so ago. I remember being into kitsch stuff and [...]

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Lyrics are all I can come up with today

The stars are bright tonight
And I am walking nowhere
Guess I will be alright
Desire gets you nowhere
And you are always right
I thought you were so perfect
Take you as you were
Have you as you were
Take you as you were
I love you just the way you are
I love you just the way you are
I´ll take you just the [...]

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They make my heart melt

Radiohead’s new album; one song stands out and catches at my throat making it swell ’til I can’t speak. I know this feeling so well.

I’m the next act
Waiting in the wings
I’m an animal
Trapped in your hot car
I am all the days
That you choose to ignore
You are all I need
You are all I need
I’m in the [...]

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Retrospective

How is it that you can always see things clearer when you look back? I was looking through my sent emails for the last year, and I kept being struck by insights that just blew me away. R.O was so mean when we got back together, his coldness chilled me then and also now when [...]

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First of the month

I can’t believe it’s October already, September seemed to fly by… October is my favourite month, because of the light and the falling leaves and the way the air has that little bite to it in the morning and evening. I like Octobers. But if it rains for the whole month, there’s not going to [...]

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You should be in my space

Last night I phoned M.E, one of my oldest friends. We’ve had a roller coaster time in the last year or two, because he fell in love with me last year and then I messed him around and was generally indecisive and feeling-hurting. I thought if he was so convinced we were soulmates, maybe we [...]

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It’s cold when you’re near

Things from the past have been catching up with me a lot in the last day or so. In good ways and bad ways… I sent C (my oldest friend, she lives in Germany and I’ve known her 10 years) a card a little while ago and she got it yesterday. She texted saying it [...]

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Quote

I found a good quote today, alongside this amazing photo.
I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge — myth is more potent than history — dreams are more powerful than facts — hope always triumphs over experience — laughter is the cure for grief — love is stronger than death.
- Robert Fulghum

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