Slope be damned indeed

Sometimes you just have to turn and give two fingers to things like slippery slopes. Sometimes you just have to live.
Last night I lay in bed and listened to loud rock music on my iPod. It’s been so long since I did that! I had to laugh at myself, because about three times during every [...]

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Happy Christmas

This Christmas I’m celebrating friendship, old and new. But especially dear old friends. I hope I have the courage to face up to the year ahead and all it brings. I feel it will be eventful, but ultimately rewarding…
Here’s to a peaceful, beautiful and love-filled festive season. Mwah!

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Joy

My son just laughed for the first time, and it’s like he’s cracked it, he understands. Cascades of wonderful giggles follow, and I want to boast, to show him to people and poke him and say ‘laugh, laugh’. It’s the best sound I’ve ever heard.
I knew he’d have a great laugh.

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30 weeks

 
This was taken today, and I’m now 30 weeks pregnant. 30 weeks was always the point at which I promised myself I’d start panicking, because, well – 10 weeks to go. That sounds crazy to me But actually I feel fairly calm, and not much like panicking. When I watched the bizarre NCT [...]

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We’ll collect those lonely parts and set them down

Lately I feel that I miss the girl I used to be, now that I know for sure that I’ll never go back to being her again. I don’t even necessarily want to be her, just sometimes feel a little wistfulness for myself a year or so ago. I remember being into kitsch stuff and [...]

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October

It’s so beautiful here right now. The leaves are falling but there are still some clinging to the trees. I keep baking, cookies mainly. I’m going to do some iced ones soon and cover them in sprinkles… I can smell them in the oven which means they’re almost done. It’s getting colder and sometimes at [...]

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It’s cold when you’re near

Things from the past have been catching up with me a lot in the last day or so. In good ways and bad ways… I sent C (my oldest friend, she lives in Germany and I’ve known her 10 years) a card a little while ago and she got it yesterday. She texted saying it [...]

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I am here

If the world ends
I hope you’re here with me
I think we could laugh just enough
to not die in pain
Guillemots – If The World Ends
My thoughts are slowly settling, like a sandy river bed that was stirred up by an inquisitive stick. I can see some things, like what I want and don’t want. I understand [...]

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Like a thundering horse

Just suddenly I feel myself wanting to write. There’s a clean untouched notebook downstairs, but I’d have to go and get it and G’s watching TV and I’d feel… that I was making rather a palaver of the whole thing. I don’t want Writing to become something said with a capital letter, the word making [...]

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More quotey-ness :)

I keep finding great quotes online. But I still can’t write, online or off. I think I have creative block because I’m happy for once. Not that I’m complaining!

We each have a journey in this life and you can’t really know where people are supposed to go, maybe they were supposed to be [...]

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