The hidden little hurts…

I remember the day I left Camphill. Dario was standing in the kitchen preparing food, and I remember feeling a guilty twinge that it wasn’t me, and how glad I was to be leaving.
Dario came from Chile, and as I stood there waiting for my lift, he suddenly started to tell me a story about [...]

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Loss of a friend

I just found this really beautiful and touching post over at Martian Anthropologist. Don’t have much to say about it, except it moved me and I’d like to share the link to it here. It’s always sad to lose someone you care about, especially if (unlike this case) you never got to share certain thoughts [...]

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Release

God I hate being ill. When I awoke finally after sleeping fitfully for 13 hours and still felt like rubbish, I had to conclude that I actually am not that well. Some stomach thing, but I can’t work out if it’s ’cause of eating something dodgy or just being stressed. And I am a little [...]

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I couldn’t care less what’s in the news

Just some lyrics today, because I was listening to this song without really hearing it, and then the words crept into my brain and I realized they were perfect for this day, totally perfect. For the frustration I feel, wanting to act but not knowing what is the right thing to do. There’s not really [...]

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Fight!

Don’t ask me how, but I have somehow persuaded my mum to watch Fight Club with me tonight. I recall saying something about how it was an interesting take on lack of materialism, hehe. I’m quite curious to see what she thinks… Watch this space. I totally love this film, in fact it’s showing at [...]

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From under the duvet

It’s so cold in our house right now that I’m writing this from under the covers in bed. Brrr! I can’t wait for winter to be over.
So quite a few things have been going on… First things first though: my “site meter inspired hiatus” turned out to be a “misunderstood sitemeter inspired hiatus”. I had [...]

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Just a little…

…Sitemeter inspired hiatus. Whatever. I just can’t write here right now.

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Blank stares, into blank times ahead.

It’s as though my life is a film, and I so want everything to turn out alright. I want to watch to the end and see all the characters sorted and pidgeon-holed and wrapped up in some way, and I want them to be happy. But I can’t see forward, and I’m just as clueless [...]

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Why I am stupid and do not deserve a degree

Instead of writing a serious essay about genocide in Bosnia, I am sitting with my feet up on my desk, drinking white wine and eating nasty little french fancies. And wondering whether to watch some bad TV or play with Garageband.
I really do despair of myself.

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Back again

So it’s about time I came back and posted here, not only do I miss my blog, but it’s third birthday is coming up next month! And somehow I never seem to post around then and end up forgetting the day. Silly me.
A few things have happened since I last wrote, I went to the [...]

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