Last night I dreamed of M. Her hair was grey and she looked tired. I still don’t understand why I dream about her so much, considering I haven’t seen her for so long – and anyway, the last time I saw her in WH Smiths she ignored me. But at least I’ve come to accept [...]

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I wanted to change my template to reflect the new, darker me, but in the end I gave up. Who wants to read white letters on a black page anyway? I always highlight sites like that when I want to read them, and feel annoyed and self-rightious.
Wooo… I feel really tired, and like giving [...]

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Oh, life is really strange at the moment. If life was a thing it would be… No, not a hastily gift-wrapped mustard container, but probably something hastily gift wrapped. I FEEL hastily gift wrapped, messy, kind of coming undone. I have no will-power, can’t find the motivation to get anything done even though HE’S ARRIVING [...]

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The Friday Five!
1. Do you enjoy the cold weather and snow for the holidays?
Yes, but I’ve never, ever had a white Christmas… *sniffs sadly*. I was just realising this yesterday and feeling really pissed off. Blah, how many people don’t have snow at christmas when they still live in such a cold and dull country? [...]

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For those people out there who may have been more than a little mystified about my post from Poland sometime in November in which I described snowless sledging, I now bring you the original photographic evidence!

Yes, that’s me, having an EXTREMELY good time.

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Last night I dreamed of C. She said she was thinking of me, I guess she must be then. It was great, she came to my house, I was so suprised to see her… She brought all this stuff from my granddad’s house and I was so grateful. I wish that dream could be real [...]

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I feel like writing here, really I do. Its just that I’d end up writing such a load of depressing old trash that I’d just depress myself even more by putting it on the web. Does that make sense?
Ah well. I expect its the winter blues. I feel like this so often, its like a [...]

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